Friday, February 7, 2025

Temple of the Twelve

Temple of the Twelve is a book written by Esmerelda Little Flame about a young girl's spiritual awakening, which explores "many of the spiritual questions and issues that we all deal with as we live our own lives." The Colors, as they are called in the books, are like gods or goddesses, and present themselves to Caroline, the story's heroine, to help her learn various spiritual lessons.
...told with gentleness and love, this is a colorful story, full of music and reverence for the old ways. A lovely book. - Vila SpiderHawk, author of the Forest Song

A companion to the book is the Temple of the Twelve: Experiential Journal, designed to guide the reader in growing alongside Caroline as she seeks and finds answers to "many of the same spiritual questions we all ask as we seek the Divine." This blog is my personal journey through the Colors, using the Experiential Journal. My hope is that others will be inspired to find their own paths to the Divine through these books as well.

While I did receive these books as a gift from the author, this blog is receiving no financial compensation from any source and all posts are my own person experiences and opinions. YMMV.

All quotes from the book jacket of Temple of the Twelve: Experiential Journal, by Esmerelda Little Flame and David J. Babulski

Monday, February 15, 2016


Imbolc is one of my favorite pagan holidays. The air is always tingling with springtime energy, no matter how cold it is. This year was wonderful because for a change, Punxsutawney Phil did *not* see his shadow and predicted an early Spring. The weather was also quite nice, getting up over 40°F with the sun breaking through quite a bit.

I didn't do much of a ritual though. I was feeling depressed, and only cleared my altar off a bit. Jacqueline made lemon poppy seed muffins, lemon to symbolize the sun, the seeds representing both the seeds waiting to burst forth and the seeds of opportunity waiting for us all in life; and she made lamb stew, a traditional Imbolc food.

Painting from Luna Moon Hare written & illustrated by Wendy Andrew

Sunday, February 7, 2016

And so we begin again...

After many starts and stops, I have begun my work with the colors again. This past Full Moon at the end of January, Jacqueline & I celebrated the Full Wolf Moon with Lady Black, who encourages us to seek our Truth. As we did so, we answered the question the Wolf Moon asks, "What dreams are you hungry for?" (Jamie Ridler's Year of Dreams)

♥ I am hungry for a deeper, more intimate relationship with Jacqueline.

♦ I am hungry for a permanent full-time job that I love, not just substitute, part-time, or interim.

♠ I am hungry for a healthy, happy body: moving, resting, full of energy...

♣ I am hungry for a home I love to be in, colors on the walls I like, things around my room I want to see (not things i feel I have to keep)...

How I imagine Lady Black to appear at times...
Brooklyn Museum - Lady in Black - Emil Fuchs - overall
Emil Fuchs [No restrictions or Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons

Sunday, November 23, 2014

Silver is Next

About halfway through my moon with Black (on Samhain!), Silver started talking to me, guiding me to pick up my tarot deck again, something I've been dabbling with since I was a teen. Finding the magic has always been a big thing for me, and now I'll be delving deeper into what that means.

Several years ago I purchased a deck of blank tarot cards to draw my own, and I haven't even attempted it yet, as I want to understand the cards more beforehand. Silver has prodded me to start that. I'll be drawing a card from my mini-tarot deck once a day for about 10 weeks (72 days), then taking notes on what each card means, what symbology is usually used and why, what it personally means to me, and what symbols I would use. Then I'll start a project of drawing one each week.

I guess Silver will be with me for a long while now. ^_^

Saturday, November 22, 2014

The Depth of Black, Again

I resumed my studies with the Colors at the end of September, and began my work with Black with the New Moon in October. To Jacqueline & I, Lady Black is all about finding - and seeing - the truth. In our lives, about ourselves, in others. Her message is not always easy. But I am getting ahead of myself...

So this is the third time I've started working with the colors, and I am hoping I make it all the way through this time. Of course the first thing we're asked to do is create a self portrait. I've introduced myself with words, but these are my self portraits from the past two times, and this time.

The top left is my first EVER self portrait from 2009. It was also my first time art journaling, and my first time using paints in a sketch book. The bottom left is my second attempt from 2011. I chose words rather than attempt another painting. And of course the right is from today. My art has indeed come a long way in the past 5 years, as has my sense of owning that title: Artist.

Anyway, on to the questions!

1. In the story, Little Bird meets Black and is challenged to discover who her authentic, real self is. How well do you know your own authentic self? We asked you to create a portrait of your self at the beginning of this adventure. How well do you think that portrait describes your real, authentic self? Black taught me quite a bit about my authentic self this time around. I think my previous self-portraits were about finding out who I am, more in a general sense (this is what I look like, these words describe me...), but this time, I tried to get an even *more* realistic view of myself, but Black still said I had to dig deeper.

2. After having read Chapter One and meeting Black, is there anything that you would like to add to your initial portrait? I would make it less perfect. As I drew, I left out blemishes and wrinkles, blaming it on the low quality photo reference I was using of course, but knowing full well they are there, and I could have found them with a mirror and drawn them in.

3. Little Bird of the story has been gifted with artistic talent. What would you say are your own gifts and talents? That is something I share with Little Bird. I don't think I draw as "divinely inspired" as she does, but I like to make art that others find pleasing and joyful, and maybe even magical.

4. Do you feel you have fully explored them? No! No way! I have lots more mediums to explore, styles to try, masters to study... I have just been getting my toes wet!

5. And how do you think Black would encourage you to explore the depths of those gifts and talents? What would she ask you to do with them? Keep going! Get out the oils, get out the canvas & artists panel, keep playing with watercolors & ink... get your stuff in the gallery! Face those fears and get it out there! Stop using *I can't afford...* as an excuse not to do things!

6. Some people are afraid of Black, thinking it is evil. Do you feel any fear towards Black? If so, why? No fear. I've never seen the color as evil. And quite honestly, you can't make something really shine and sparkle bright if there's no dark.

7. You have seen how Caroline reacts and interacts with Deity as represented by the color Black? If you were in Little Bird’s place, how do you think you would react and interact with the color Black? I definitely hold myself more reserved than she does. I think I would probably cry, I do tend to do that a lot.

8. Select just one of the gifts and talents that you listed earlier. Write down your plan on how you will improve that gift or talent. I am definitely working on getting more pieces into the gallery, and will be continuing to draw & sketch daily, and paint as often as I can.

9. OPTIONAL: Write your own Prayer to Black here. Not this time around.

10. A Ritual for Black: Jacqueline & I had our ritual this evening at our altar and spoke of our month with Black. Black has shown me this month that I spend too much time trying to present a perfect face, a perfect life, when the truth is I am so not perfect.

I am messy, moody, distracted, and unfocused, and I hold myself, and the people around me, to impossibly high standards, and am continually let down when those standards aren't met. I spend too much time unhappy and cause much of my own misery by expecting so much.

But again, the truth is that life is still full of wonderful beautiful things. The important things. The things that really matter. Unconditional love, warm clothes, warm dry house, electricity, water, food... I even have a car, and a big happy family.

Perfect? Far from it. And even my daily gratitude posts fail to put me in the right frame of mind some days. I take so much for granted. And that was Lady Black's lesson for me this past month. The truth about my life and myself.

Sunday, July 7, 2013


I find it funny that my last post discusses my Word of the Year, DO, and my work with Pink, and now it's nearly a year and a half later, and although I have a new word, DARE, I am still working with Pink. I suppose I took much of 2012 off from my spiritual practices, and have been only toying with them this year, off & on since January.

I've been doing a monthly Full Moon Dreamboard with Jamie Ridler and slowly reading through my Temple of the Twelve book again, but I've not really been focusing on it much, and I want to change that.

So to that end, I am going to try to update this blog at least once a week, as a way to reflect on my spirituality and focus on my growth. Also for the next 22 days I'll be following Joanna Powell Colbert's 22 Days of Tarot Sparks and blogging the journaling prompts on The Diary of a Crazy Rabbit Lady, Too. Feel free to join me over there!

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